Thursday, July 7, 2016

The First Time Percy Came Back

The First Time Percy Came Back

The first time Percy came back
he was sailing on a cloud...

"Percy," I cried out, and reached to him-
those white curls-
but he was unreachable. As music
is present yet you can't touch it...

When I first read the poem, my sister had died only a few weeks earlier.  She had come back to us in dreams, first to my niece, and then to me, young, healthy, and thin.  She lived through a long illness, as did both my parents, and my father- and mother-in-law.  They are all gone, yet they keep coming back to me, sometimes more frequently and vividly than they did when they first died. Heck, even more than when they were alive.  My wish to have them with me also grows stronger.

Why couldn't I see their music, their beauty, more when they were alive?  Why does it seem so hard to touch that inescapable wonder in each and every one of us, and in each and every moment?

We live through such depths of pain, misery, and loss, all which hollow us out. But there, in that pit, an orchestra made up of all whom we have known, know, and will know, sounds loudly, "wake up!"

Questions for Reflection

Whom do you wish would come back? What would you say to them? Do?

Do those who have died or gone away ever really leave us?

Who can you find, today, to tell a story of loss, and of a coming back to life?

Wednesday, July 6, 2016


Today I'm flying low and I'm
not saying a word
I'm letting all the voodoos of ambition sleep.

The world goes on as it must,
the bees in the garden rumbling a little,
the fish leaping, the gnats getting eaten.
And so forth.

But I'm taking the day off.
Quiet as a feather.
I hardly move though really I'm traveling 
a terrific distance

Stillness. One of the doors
into the temple

Where and what is the temple?   I suppose it could be the place where we plunge into the ocean, returning?  Or where we run through the meadow and leap into gods' arms? Maybe the temple is where we shine the mirror only to have the temple burn down around us?  It's probably all those things - we just keep trying doors to enter, and breathe deep when the forces of life slam the doors in our faces.  But no matter, because I'm taking a wild guess here, the temple lies on both sides of the door.

Questions for Reflection:

1.  What ambitions keep you from rest?  Or keep you from your "temple."
2. What is your temple?
3. What do you do with the "must" that speaks of fish eating gnats, of the harm inherent in life?